you ever feel like you just literally lost moments out of your life, precious moments you want to get back. its that feeling like when you're in a taxi and you're trying to pay the driver really fast when theres 19 million cars behind you on a one way street, honking and screaming expletives in spanish at u....and then u drop a euro in between the cracks where the seat slides back and forth and u can see it but u cant reach it and the driver screams at u to get out. so u have to just LEAVE your euro there. the euro u can see but ur stupid fat arm cant fit into the crack to retrieve it. thats what i just did. except for it was less literal and more along the lines of a commonly known ordeal paying rent in which u literally (i guess it is literal) throw minutes of your life into the trash or to the 907 year old dueña with no teeth who hasnt shaved a day in her life and smells like soup. but like old soup. soup that has been left sitting on the stove since last week soup. like retirement home soup. but dont let the retirement home visual fool you. bitch. is. crazy. i feigned every illness possible to try to get her to stop talking...nothing worked. finally i went insane. and thats where im writing from. a mental ward. as im typing this im running around slamming myeslf into padded walls and wearing one of those starchy white uniforms that itch more than the devil. ALKJ)!)!)@(!1&! I WANT THOSE MOMENTS BACK