blinded i was blindsided

i am a victim of opposition. magnetized simultaneously towards dissimilar poles. like most people, i feel certain emotions...shocker, but the thing thats stupid is how i negate my emotions consciously. who does that? im pretty sure most people let themselves cry and be sad for all the reasons that people cry and are sad in their lives, but why do i purposefully remove any feeling from any situation. can u say robot?